Meeting Jilly: Sunway Edition

I finally managed to meet Jillian aka JillySilly after knowing her for gawd-knows-how-long. Our timing has always been terrible, whenever I'm in KL, she's in JB; when she's in KL, I'm back in Perth.

So when I finally got a chance, I didn't fucking care and made my friend, Chloe, drive me down (with my car) to Sunway Pyramid to meet her. I also met Yuna and Jesny whom I've only so far heard and seen pictures of. So, it was a good day.

I'll let the pictures do the talking:

And I thought I was nervous meeting Jill... apparently the photographer more shaky than me.
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See, I look so starstruck la!

Anyways, it was great meeting you, Jill!

We met again last night at Euphoria, MOS. Pictures for that, soon to come.

All I can say is that Jill is fucking hot and she's probably the only girl I'd turn femme for. ROFL!

Today was a rather tiring day, here's a preview of what I did:

Sometimes, I just want to let go.
But it hurts too much.

Anne and the egg tarts

I met up with Anne at Sungai Wang on the 23rd of September. Then we walked over to Pavillion to get these:

Yes! My John King egg tarts! And she owes me a LIFETIME SUPPLY!!!

Why? This you better ask her for the details. But basically, she lost a bet XD

Here she is with the egg tarts. While she's smiling I'm quite sure she's wishing that I die eating them...

I know, I look like a small kid on Christmas morning.
I just love egg tarts la ok?!?!?!

She bought 3, 1 for her and 2 for me ^^

These are the best egg tarts in the world. The pastry is so soft and the filling is sooooooo tasty. It melts in your mouth and you can feel yourself melting with it XD

Hehehe... At least the next time you'll see me would be about 2 years. You have a lot time to save up more money to buy me more egg tarts ok, Anne?

And thanks for going shopping with me :)

Next post: Meeting Jillian =]

You just took my breath away.
And I'm all the way here, you're all the way there...

Of journeys and blurry state of mind.

Just came back from Penang. No pictures with me because I'm still waiting for the peeps to send them to me.

But I had a great time :)

Not so great when I had fishballs, beer, noodles, ice blended mocha and gawd knows what else going up my nose thanks to all the funny arse people who love to make me choke with the most random/funny/entertaining things ever.

But a great BIG BIG BIG THANK YOU to aL who seriously drove me all around Penang island. Love you long time! Will send back more Tim Tams for you la... but remember to share this time. Later the other peeps come kill me XD

And it was great meeting Cedric, Vingie, Emily, Colleen, JJ, Chee Hsien, Minny and a few other people whom I can't remember names now. You people make me laugh like tomorrow.

I'm sorry I have to go back to Perth but I promise to come back in 2 years' time. Earlier if one of you gets married first. Yes Vingie, even if you do get married on the 4th of October 2008, I will guarantee I sure go! Muahahahahahahahaha!

And of course, not forgetting Cathrine who promised to stay with me for the whole trip. I know the shouters kinda scared you with their crazy antics but you were nice enough to still come and meet them :)

Oh yea, twins are hot. XD

home.

You know the saying "home is where the heart is"?

I'm supposed to be "home" now... but... it doesn't feel like it.

I see familiar things, people I know. And yet...



Maybe it's cause of the stupid fever I woke up with this morning before the flight...


But I think its cause I didn't get what I wanted.

confusion

Hmm... my boss just told me that I did a job that I couldn't recall at all... weird eh?

I am very sure I didn't do it la can?!?!?!?!?!?!?

I would remember a promotion if I did one because I've only done 1... bah... I wonder who's the real confused one now... -______-



18 hrs 12mins.

Would you even know?



The next 17 days is going to be torture. THIS I'm sure you'd know why.

I think...

Hmm... I bet it'll be almost 3 weeks or more until I can get a peace of mind.

But I've got till tomorrow to get a glimpse of what I want.

Please let me have it?

Even for a second, I'd give up a year. I really would.

toca's miracle

2.46

2.47

私を見たいと思ってする。。。

でも。。。

あなたここにいない。

心の思考今に，一つのことだけ。

あなた。

毎日も，あなた。

120, 1 rainy night, toca's miracle on repeat... 今でも考えを停止することはできません。

I'll just keep telling myself “もういいよ。”

あなたに会うときにはいいですか？

ことを忘れないでね。OKですか？

blur case

Insomnia sucks...

Too many things running through my head.

*stares blankly at screen*

i think i'm in trouble.

Insomnia + caffeine addiction + late nights = headache + motion sickness + eye bags

Which means, there's a drunk panda sitting here blogging instead. *hiccup*

a little thing worthwhile.

I know I'm not supposed to post any more of the emo chronicles but just let me have this okay?

Sometimes I wonder if its all worth it. Life goes on but I feel left behind at times. People change, things change but I find myself in the same place over and over...

I'm feeling tired.

Just need a release from this mundane life I feel and maybe I find that in you.

Maybe one day I'll feel different. But for now, just let me live in my own little world where I can just escape... even for a little while.

It's worth it.

drama.

Once again, I think I got myself into extra trouble.

Hmm...

Someone needs to whack me over the head with a huge ass paper fan.



Anyway, I think most people want me to write about the TB post so now I'll ask the question of "Should I blog about the Good or Bad things worth mentioning?".

I think I know what the answer's gonna be but entertain me while I go do research and try to focus.

On hold.

After on hold for 20 mins:

"Our staff are still engaged at the moment"

NO SHIT!

Stupid MAS... first you cancel my flight, then you change my flight THEN you forgot to reissue & send me my e-ticket!!!

WHY THE FUCK AM I PAYING SO MUCH TO FLY WITH YOU PEOPLE!

*long string of curses*

Undecided

Okay, I know I've been doing alot of emo blogging (or as I call them, the emo chronicles) and I think some people may be sick of it.

So, I open up the option for people to choose what topic I should blog about (just like how I ended up with the Seafood TBs in Malaysia post).

The topics for today are:

The few TBs worth a mention from Malaysia

or

My Road Trip to the Lakeside Resort


Choose people :)

Late nights and working mornings...

...so do not go together.

I am tired. At least my body is. But my mind is still thinking too much.

I can't sleep. I force myself to.

I dread waking up. And yet I force myself to.

Sipping coffee and staring at car parts....

*sigh*

8 more days.



私を忘れないで。

おねがい。。。

Being stoned

While multi-tasking with chatting on msn, TV, blogs and some random online games, I've managed to learn how to play "Let Go" by m-flo LOVE Yoshika.

Go Youtube it. The acoustic version is just... bliss.

A sad song, I know. But just so nice to play on the guitar.

Nope, I so do not regret splurging my first paycheck on my baby guitar. Not my first choice for an acoustic, but the Yamaha F310P is helping to satisfy my itchy fingers for the time being.

Next stop, an Epiphone Black Beauty to practice on to make my fingers worthy of the ever gorgeous Gibson Les Paul.



So many more things I want to do, I want to have in this life. Little steps, little baby steps. And one day, this ikan bilis will grow into a big ass shark. One day.

Eh woman, jangan lupa you ada date ngan I esok.
I mau makan waffle! Kita emo sama-sama je la...

Of blurry nights & speeding lights

I love driving.

Driving in Perth is very calming, there's not much traffic and several roads are just amazing to drive on.

Roads like Mill Point with the view of the foreshore and city lights. Just beautiful.

Then there's Mounts Bay Road and Riverside Drive. There is no better time to view the sights than when you're going down those roads during the sunset. Never fails to make me smile.

Then again, I've only managed to discover the joy of driving down that road just recently.

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Well, at least when I'm back in KL I can drive above the speed limits and just give a bribe if I get caught. Man, I miss the crazy times when my friends and I reverse down highways, standing out of the car from the sunroof and trying to take pictures of the twin towers...

Yes Colleen, I'm in deep shyt. LOL.

Of shots, hangovers and Monday mornings

Need I even say more?

My head still hurts and I don't think it's the alcohol.



What I wouldn't give for a cup of Tiramisu Latte from Gloria Jeans now...

Wait, there IS 1 thing I wouldn't give... but its never mine to begin with.



Oh fuck...

I know

I knew it was coming.

I even braced myself for it.

But then again, thinking and imagining is just never the same as when it happens.






My head hurts.

If this is how its gonna be

If I'm going to feel this way every single time, I think I'd rather not see you.

Wait, I take that back. I want to see you...

But the things you do, makes me think way too much. Of the gazillion scenarios or reasons to why you'd do something.

Its wearing me out mentally and physically. When I think too much, I find things to get my mind off you.

And guess what, it doesn't work.

Never worked before. Certainly didn't work last night.

Omg, last night... I think I remember the night, but some parts seem hazy.

And yet, it's amazing how your face is so clear.


But it's still only the side of your face.




And I think I see your back too.

Words

There's so many things that I want to say, and yet, I can't seem to find the words. Drama belongs on TV. Period.

But somehow I find myself not only witnessing it but also involved in it.

Things are rough, but thanks to great friends (you know who you are, I don't want to boost your ego too much XD) I am getting through it. At least I THINK I'm getting through it.

I'll be back in KL in less than 2 weeks and I seriously don't want to leave. Not only because I'm going to have to face some really uncomfortable situations, not to mention struggling to get back on my feet financially when I come back... but I am just so afraid you'd forget about me.

I know things are hard for you too... I understand.

I am not expecting anything in return. Except maybe an answer. Well, let me rephrase that, a definite answer. Then maybe I'll just tell myself that it is just not going to happen and I'll move on, one day.

The thing about moving on, this time. I don't want to. I don't know what is it about you. But somehow I've managed to be in this position and all I can think about is "How the hell did I end up here?" in such a short time, a very very short time. It's a new record really.

I try to remember your face, but I can't get a front view in my head except for images of you in photos. When I think about it, I've only got the side view of your face imprinted in my head.

And that tells me something very important.

I'm always on the side.

Never the main character.

Just a sign by the side of the road. Sometimes I'm a detour that people take.

But they eventually leave me behind.

But I'd rather remember the side, cause it means I am close enough.

The day I start seeing your back, it will kill me. Cause it means you're walking away.



I am really not expecting anything. I've learned to expect the worst so that I won't get disappointed.

But I do realize that I've been waiting for an answer without asking the question.

The truth is, I'm afraid.

I want to ask, but I'm afraid of the answer.

So afraid that it keeps me up at night. So afraid that we can't even be friends.



I am terrified.

ごめんね。。。

本当に　ごめん　な。。。　俺　は　不遺跡　です。

今何も　忘れない，わからない。。。　

何で？

自身　今に　いない。

愛ですか？　好きですか？

人間の人生　は。。。　何？

おしえてくれよ！

痛い。　本当に。　

もう　いい　よ。