The things people tell me

"Let go."

"Seriously, move on."

Here's the answer: I don't want to.

There's just something about a girl who makes you fall so bad, so fast and even though you don't get to see her as much as you want, you are still where you are.

There's just something about a girl who makes you want to work your ass off just so that you can pamper her or provide her a better future and give her a sense of security.

There's just something about a girl who can make your night worthwhile just by getting a 10 second glimpse of her... even if it's just her back.

There's just something.

Trust me.

of early morning spam and IT people in Melbourne

Muthafarkerkaninachaocibaipukimak!

Just came into office and checked my email. I found that I have 1 email blocked by the filter from this web company that I was liaising with.

Here's the thing, I've always been pissed off with this particular woman because she works at a web company providing web services but don't check email. Replies super fucking slow.

Her "I'll update you tomorrow" means "I'm gonna make you wait for 3 weeks".

Yesterday I emailed her again because my boss wants to know what the fuck are they doing because there's no updates at all. But I got an automated message saying she's no longer working with the company.

OMFG!

So I thought I would just have to wait for someone else in the company to contact me because that's what the email told me.

That is until I got the spam report this morning saying 1 email was blocked from someone in the web company.

So it says that the email has been delayed and sender will be validated automatically. The email will be delivered shortly after. But it shows the email was sent at 1.19pm yesterday. Today it's still not here.

So I contacted the IT person in Melbourne and asked if I could get the email retrieved.

His reply was "Did you read this?" and a copy & paste of the spam report regarding the fact that the email would be eventually sent over.

EXCUSE ME?!?!?!?! YOU THINK I CANNOT READ ARH?!?!?!?!

LOOK AT THE BLARDY TIME LA!!!

Lucky boss not here today... if here I sure kena D-I-U. Geram-nye...

When I saw his reply I so wanted to reply this:

"Kthxbai"
*insert middle finger here*

of the things I tell myself and try to do.

Okay, I'm back in Perth.

Back to reality.

Fuck this. 17 days of trying to forget.

And you still manage to hit me like a train.

I've got more important things to worry about. Things I need to focus on.




But how do you control your mind when your heart is so obviously somewhere else?

Excuse me while I go dunk my head in some cold water.