My doggie, Pocky is sick T_T
Gotta remind my dad to take her to the vet... they're WAAAAAAAAYYYYYY past the due date for their second vaccination. I brought them there earlier once but the vet said it was too early... had to wait a week or two more... then procrastication set in >.<
I hope my Pocky will be ok tomorrow...

Have you ever felt so torn apart that you wish that there was something that existed to guide you?
That's how I'm feeling now... been torn apart these days. Not really something new since I am a walking contradiction and my life might as well be the definition for the exact word in the dictionary...

con·tra·dic·tion
n.

1. 1. The act of contradicting.
   2. The state of being contradicted.
2. A denial.
3. Inconsistency; discrepancy.
4. Something that contains contradictory elements.
5. (See also: The life of - r y u -; - r y u -)
   

Hehehe... that's obviously plagerized from dictionary.com. Yes, I even rely on the internet for explanation of a word instead of going to the traditional gawd-knows-how-many-pages-book. I go to the electronic version: fast, simple, easy which also equals to LAZY.

Anyways, I'm wishing for something called the textbook of LIFE. Where all the solutions to all the problems in life is in that book. Hehe... I guess I can just dream on. If there was such a thing, there wouldn't be a point in living right? But I hate living so that gives me the right to complain. Bah!

There's a group of friends in college whom I'm close with who always say one thing to me whenever they see me looking troubled: "What's bothering you? Studies? Girls?" And before I can reply, they would say: "Ofcourse it's girls. Studies can never bother you this much."

Haha... and it's quite true. Not to say that I'm a genius and that studies doesn't affect or stress me at all, but I've always managed when it came to learning from books. I mean, if I didn't know or didn't understand anything that the lecturer said, the answer will be in a book. Sure, it would take some time to search for it, but there will ALWAYS be an answer... That's why I do not get pressured that much by studies... But girls... love... and life... THAT I have a problem. Cause there's no right or wrong answer to the questions that they bring. I do not have a solution because there is nothing or no one to tell me...

People tell me I worry too much about things that don't matter. There are more important things in life. I know there are such things. And I also know I need to focus on those things. But from my point of view, those things that have already written themselves do not need that much focus. Maybe I'm taking things forgranted... I know I tend to do that. I am not perfect. I do not want to be perfect. Not being perfect gives me a reason to actually want to do something... There's a good and bad though...

Cause not being perfect either makes me wanna be perfect so I strive and I fight in life trying to achieve the best I can... it also depresses me so much that it drives me towards suicidal thoughts...

Now you know why I call myself a contradiction.

I am bored.
So very very bored...
I need a job.
Can someone offer me a job? Sighz...
Anyways, here's some random pictures taken with my hp...

Took this when I was at Fraser's Hill... I go there every year... it's an annual thingy between my family and a few others... It's a dessert that I really enjoy when I'm there. It's mixed fruits: blueberries, papaya, pineapple and banana... It's really good =D


HIYEAH!!!! BB Gundams... Love fixing gundams... would wanna buy more but they just cost too much... T_T (p.s. yes, I have been drinking when I took this pic XD)


Spotted this white Kenari when I went for yumcha... Yeap, that's a HEART shaped muffler... I heard that you can get it in the shape of Hello Kitty's head... weird huh? But so unique... I wonder if I can get one in the shape of a middle finger just to say "Fuck off". Hahahaha...


Left: Iced Lemon Tea; Right: Lemon Coke. Taken at Serdang's Wong Kok Char Chan Teng. I usually go there either on Mon or Tues cause they have people playing music from 9-12 on Mondays to Wednesdays.


Doraemon... see that small mouse? Yea, that's why he's lying on the floor unconscious. Hehe... my friend bought this collector's item for RM180. Really fun to play with ^^


Doraemon's in love with you!!! (yes, I am currently so bored that I don't care...)


And last but not least... look at what the Malaysian goverment did... I don't mind the increase if they improve the public transportation... But I guess it will take another 20 years before they actually realize that stuffing over 80 ppl into 1 bus is just plain ridiculous... not to mention dangerous. (yes, I myself have tried that... why do you think I own a car?)