Thursday, December 28, 2006


I just sent her home.

It's so quiet...

I miss her...

I'll stay strong...

I'm coming back home.

Thursday, December 07, 2006


Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love.

Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships.

You expect a lot from your lover - you want the full package. You tend to be very picky.

In fights, you love to debate and defend yourself. You logic prevails - or at least you'd like to think so.

You have a hard time ending relationships, even if the other person says it's over.

Hmm... it is kinda true... lolz...
Btw, if you're wondering how am I posting this, I'm "borrowing" someone's wireless. Hahaha... my living room can get wireless signal from someone who didn't secure it =P
Will post pics of my new place soon...

Monday, December 04, 2006

Moving out

This is gonna be my last post for the time being since I'm moving out tomorrow and I won't be getting the Internet fixed up until I come back next year.

Anyways, just try to summarize everything in this post...

Finally got a house, a lil pricey but it's a nice place and I especially like the kitchen. Hahaha... I might just start practicing my cooking skills. Shouldn't be too bad right? Since I survived for almost 2 years already. Lolz...

But when I look at the bills I have to start paying... headache man... phone, electricity, water, gas, petrol, car service, garbage disposal... feel like fainting. Really as if I got married and starting new family. Hahaha... But I do kinda wish for that day to come?

Currently wondering if I should change my status to "Single and available". Hahaha...

These days I have been feeling empty inside. Tried my best to drown it out but didn't manage to. It comes back at night when I am lying in my bed alone... then the tears come. Sucks... I know I'm weak. But... this is a little too much for me to bear. It couldn't be that I miss KL that much since I was away much longer last year and I was fine...

I DO miss KL... just not THAT much until I can't function. I mean, I can still handle a job, pay bills and all that stuff. I'm even looking for a 2nd job... Anyone can offer me a good job when I'm back in KL? Just promoting work is fine with me. Lolz...

I guess I am still hurt from that time.

I mean, when someone says they love you and all, and although everything seemed to happen so fast, you were happy. You were really happy. But... then everything just falls apart and no matter how they try to explain to you, you just can't seem to see what went wrong...

What went so terribly wrong that you just can't seem to accept it no matter how hard you tried.

It's not like you don't understand it... you do! But your heart doesn't... it has just gotten used to the possibility that this person might just be the ONE.

And then they rip your heart out.

But it is still beating.

I've been doing alot of soul searching and somehow I could not arrive at an answer.

But, weird things happen.

There is a right time for everything.

I realized, although I felt that the whole thing was a dream, that I was just being played, just a toy for someone's amusement...

I realized that somewhere in that short dream, she loved me.

She really loved me.

Somewhere, somehow, when she said those 3 words...

She meant it.

That is enough.

Friday, December 01, 2006


Layer One: On the outside
Name: - r y u – (not gonna post my name here *bluekz*)
Birthday: 28th October (I’m missing a lot of pressies… *ahem*)
Current Status: It’s complicated? Hahaha… “Single, not available” better than “Not single, but available” right?
Eye Colour: Dark Brown
Hair Colour: Black with blonde streaks…
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: Scorpio (Don’t make me angry!!! I sting!!!)

Layer Two: On the inside
Your Heritage: Chinese
Your Fears: Spiders… Cockroaches… double the scare if I find them in my car…
Your Weakness: Erm… Naughty? Hehehe…
Your Perfect Pizza: Margheritta (I think this is how you spell it) anything with CHEESE~

Layer Three: Yesterday, today, tomorrow
Your Thoughts First Waking Up: Fuck. (hehehe… of course I got different thoughts depending on what I have to do that day la…)
Your Bedtime: Usually between 1-3am… Exam times then 6am la…
Your Most Missed Memory: Hmm… *himitsu* =P

Layer Four: Your pick
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi (Depends on where la… KL then I pick Pepsi, Aus then I pick Coke… Pepsi here SUCKS)
McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald’s! (Don’t like Burger King)
Single or Group Dates: Single
Adidas or Nike: Adidas
Lipton Tea or Nestea: Both~ XD
Chocolate or Vanilla: CHOCOLATE!!!!
Cappucinno or Coffee: Kinda confusing… isn’t cappuccino a type of COFFEE??

Layer Five: Do You...
Smoke: Occasionally
Curse: Reducing as time passes… but will suffer relapse when in physical pain XD

Layer Six: In the past month
Drank Alcohol: A few Jack Daniels Cola.
Gone To The Mall: Erm… Perth don’t have much that is considered Mall wor… but got I guess…
Been On Stage: Nope.
Eaten Sushi: I have to roll sushi everyday… what do you think???
Dyed Your Hair: Just did... but not much difference...

Layer Seven: Have You Ever..
Played A Stripping Game: Nope
Change Who You Were To Fit In: Hmm… yes I guess.

Layer Eight
Age You're Hopping To Get Married: When I can.
Layer Nine: In A Girl/Guy
Best Eye: Anything as long as it’s a normal pair of eyes and not like some of those Ah Lians who take pics with their eyes big big… so ugly…
Best Hair: Long (but not too long until reach the floor la… mop meh…)
Short Hair or Long Hair: Long.

Layer Ten: What Were You Doing
1 Minute Ago: Took cds from housemate.
1 Hour Ago: Sleeping.4.5 Hours Ago: Still sleeping…
1 Month Ago: Wah liao… wanna list all meh… kanasai…
1 Year Ago: Erm… I think I was in NZ…

Layer Eleven: Finish the sentence
I Love: Sleeping, eating, playing, watching movies, disturbing housemates…
I Feel: Hungry!!!
I Hide: My feelings…
I Miss: 16th September 2006.
I Need: Cooking skills… (hahahahahahhahahaha….)

Layer Twelve: Tag 5 People
Not gonna bother tagging anyone… if I’m bored enough, I’ll create my own tag =P

However, the only one I know who is bored enough to actually do this is Jingz. Hehe… so Jingz, if you read this, do la…

Saturday, November 04, 2006

My reply

As many would know, there is a blog on friendster which had insulted homosexuals by stating that it plain digusts him and that homosexuality is "wrong".

Those are just his point of view and he has the freedom to actually say what he wants and write whatever he wants in his blog. But if he had stopped there, I would have just brushed it off because I have seen too many people like this who just can't seem to get their head out of their asses.

But he just HAD to say that his writings are correct because they are not his point of view but he found all those information through "research". And basically this just pissed me off. Because in my head, this is a little kid who is claiming that the has found the reasons to why homosexuality is wrong and he even LISTED the reasons WHY people become homosexuals.

So, I asked for a list of references and here they are:

To -ryu- about the links, sorry there are none. Just reference books. I'll just
put some though, the list seems unbelivable long.
References: Straight or
Narrow? page 110-111; Archives of General Psychiatry 48, page 127; The Gay
Report by K. Jay and A. Young, pg 728; Sex in America by R Michael, pg 216; The
Wounded Heart by Dan Allender pg 127 or if you just want the list and other
resources, contact Jeff Olson, RBC Ministries. (PO Box 15, Geylang Post Office,
Singapore 913801)

I shall go through each of them...

1. Straight or Narrow? page 110-111; Archives of General Psychiatry 48, page 127

I am in high doubts of this article. I did some search for this particular journal but I could not find it. It was not online or in the library.

Not to mention that when I went to the main website for this particular journal (, I just couldn't find this article. You guys can go check it yourselves under the "Past Issues" tab. The volume is there, but the article is not. There is no page 110-111.

There are several reasons why it is missing: 1. The publisher realized that the publication's results are wrong or fabricated; 2. The author took the article off because he realized his results are plain crap; 3. The article has been refuted by other articles. Either way, it shows that the article is not of credible material. Therefore, that's 1 down, 3 to go.

2. The Gay Report by K. Jay and A. Young, pg 728

This one is one of the most hillarious excuse for a reference I have ever seen. The first thing I found out about this book, it that it was published in 1979!!!

Damn, if that wasn't enough for me to rub it into that idiot's little brainless face, I found out more information about the book:

  • As an informal survey, the respondents were self-selecting, which encourages those who are more sexually adventurous to participate. A miniscule response rate of little more than 1% exposes the work to the heavy influence of participation bias.
  • The respondents who perceived a bias on the part of the authors based on the questionnaires may have participated — or declined to participate — based on whether they believed their answers were what the authors were looking for.
  • The respondents who perceive a bias on the part of the authors may have inflated, exaggerated, or otherwise altered their responses in accordance with those perceived biases.
  • By relying on readers of a gay porn magazine for a significant bulk of the responses, the authors have virtually guaranteed an exceptionally heavy biased towards the opinions and experiences of those who are much more sexually adventurous. These are hardly your Redbook readers, or even your typical Advocate readers.
  • The authors, are Christian activists (need I say more?)

Information from,005.htm

If you're interested to find out more reasons why this book is a joke of a publication, go on ahead to the website.

2 down, 2 to go.

3. Sex in America by R Michael, pg 216

This is also one resource I can't get a hard copy from, therefore I'm seriously doubting where the little brainless idiot got all this information (I have an idea but I shall elaborate further on).

Not to mention that the book was about sexual behaviours of Americans. This was not specifically focused on homosexuals. And the main aim was to focus on the risk of AIDS and sexual conduct.

There are 2 very wrong things about this book that I can confidently conclude even without reading this book: 1. It's based on the American population, not everything can be generalized just because they are the country that actually bothered to do a research on sexual conduct... what does that tell you about the condition of the country? (Btw, this book was released in 1995); 2. It FOCUSES ON AIDS AND SEXUAL CONDUCT. I bet the only connection that the little idiot found between this book and homosexuality is one sentence which could have been "Homosexuals have higher risk of getting AIDS through sexual intercourse". And from that one little sentence, he somehow got the idea that ALL homosexuals will get AIDS and use that against homosexuals.

This is not a bad book. It is very informative and could offer alot of interesting facts. But about AMERICANS who are STRAIGHT and also about AIDS. This is not a good reference for information about homosexuals.

Here's 2 links I found information about this book on. The 2nd link is about the author.

3 down, 1 to go.

4. The Wounded Heart by Dan Allender (1990)

Again, I could not access much information about this book. I looked through several reviews and the sypnosis and also about the authors and I can conclude what I know in 2 sentences:

1. It is written in a Christian's perspective about sexual abuse.

Oh man, I can have a field trip stomping this book... First off, written in a CHRISTIAN's perspective??? Look at the blog entry that started all this crap in the first place, it was written in a CHRISTIAN's perspective who so happens to also be a little brainless idiot.

And it's about sexual abuse. Aparently, the book is about sexual abuse victims who are Christians and how they can overcome the trauma by placing their faith in God. But guess who are the sexual abusers, they're usually not strangers, they are usually family members. And in THIS book, the study is about Christian sexual abuse victims, so what does this make the sexual abusers more likely to be? Yeap, Christians.

2. It offers a "spiritual diagnosis".

Please show me research on "spiritual diagnosis". How do you quantify "spiritual diagnosis"? I know you can quantify qualitative information or interviews but how do you quantify "spiritual diagnosis"? If a research can't provide quantitative results, it is NOT a research.


I also have to state that 3 out of 4 of the references are books. Books released in 1979, 1990 & 1995. All more than 10 years old. They are still good reads (though I beg to differ on the Gay Report) but they DO NOT qualify as sources good enough to reference (especially if you're a brainless little idiot who does not know the consequences of his actions).

And also the place where he suggested I go to for more information is RBC Ministries. A FREAKING MINISTRY!!! OF COURSE YOU'RE GONNA GET ANTI-HOMOSEXUALITY ARTICLES THERE!!!

That is my reply to that little idiot. I know I shouldn't be calling him an idiot but this is MY blog. I did not use any profanity nor was I rude to him when I commented in his blog. I have much more brains than that.

I just found out that his blog has been suspended. And if this was done by any homosexuals or TBs that was flaming him in his blog, I am ashamed to be one of you. This is much too low. He has his right to free speech just like us. Just because he chooses to flaunt his brainlessness doesn't mean you should use profanities and flame him without basis.

That's all I have to say for now.

Peace to the world people... it COULD happen someday...

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

be proud.

Yeap, I managed to catch the Pride Parade in Perth.
It was awesome!!!
No discrimination or any shit like that.
This is how the world should be.
Unlike some people who clearly do not think before they speak. Or in this case, blog. (People from friendster should know who I'm talking about)
In regards towards that individual, I shall write my reply after my exams. Have to study now...
Btw, to those who wished me happy birthday, thanks peeps.

Sunday, October 22, 2006


Saturday, October 21, 2006

A few recent updates...

Hmm... been a while since I updated. Anyways, nothing much to say, except for the fact that it's assignment time and everything is due all at once T_T So basically I'm super duper busy and I know I have been neglecting some friends (I'm SORRY!!!) and also my dear bloggie.

But I can't help it... have really been swamped with work. And I've also gotten a part time job. I'm working as a kitchen hand for this Japanese takeaway food place. It's just a few hours a day, but have to wake up really early in the morning. And I also have to drive to the train station and switch trains at the city to get to my work place.

But I get paid 10bux an hour. So, it covers all my costs and pays for 1 full tank of my car petrol. So, I'm happy. Hehehe... After all exams are done, I will be looking for a second job to earn more. Need to save up money to bring my grandma over for my graduation ^^

Anyways, I would like to share with you guys this funny thing that happened a few days ago...

*** I'm in the computer labs and my friend is with me. She's eating some sushi that she got from work (same place as me la... btw, I rolled the tuna & california rolls). Two friends came over, a guy & girl and she offered her friends the sushi ***

Girl: *takes sushi and eats* Nice... You want one? *gives the guy sushi*
Guy: *takes one* Thanks.
Girl: Here's some soy sauce. Put some wasabi as well.
Guy: Don't teach a Japanese how to eat sushi!
Girl: You're not all Japanese, you're only half!
Guy: At least I'm half! You're NONE!
Girl: *can see veins popping out*

Hahaha... stupid right? But the situation very funny la... and the look on the girl's face was priceless!!! The guy damn geng at teasing people man!

That's all for this post la... btw, don't you guys love me?

How come no one give me hugs???

Friday, October 13, 2006

Totally... lost.

i have no words.

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

The Great Post

Wanna see something cool?



Hehehe... This is my GREAT post! Nice or not???

Saturday, October 07, 2006


p.s. got a great post coming up!

Thursday, October 05, 2006

fried rice & a piece of KFC...

Thank you.

You know who you are =)

Monday, October 02, 2006


Only you can give me the wings i need.

Sunday, October 01, 2006

Tonight I Wanna Cry

Tonight I Wanna Cry
Keith Urban

Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

Would it help if I turned a sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

[Repeat chorus twice]

The Temple

I went to a Chinese temple today. The feeling is different from when I last stepped into one (which is a very super long time ago since I'm not religious). I even participated in part of the praying ceremony. Honestly, I didn't know what I was doing but that wasn't the main thing on my mind... It was how serene I felt when I was in there. I wasn't at awe of the statues and all (though it was pretty impressive). I was just feeling... calm.

I have never been a religious person. But today, I saw why people needed religion. It is a guide for all of us who are in the dark. No, I did not have an enlightening moment and decided to convert or something. I just went "Oh..." *imagines light bulb turning on*.

Mainly, I was there because I've always known she is a religious person, therefore I just wanted to see this side of her. I wanna know her even more. Every single thing I learn about her makes me like her even more. When I saw how devoted she was, I guess I was touched. I don't know how to explain my feelings... I just went "Wow...". Speechless is the word.

Anyways, I said a prayer myself. I wished for good health for my family (especially my Grandma) and friends. And I wished for her happiness. I found myself asking the Goddess of Mercy to look after her because I know she believes in the Goddess. I also found myself wishing I never have to leave her side because somehow, she has become a very important part of me. How this happened, I don't know.

But in my prayer, I too said that if she can only obtain happiness by me leaving, I will leave willingly. I want so badly to fight and stay but I know that what really keeps me going is knowing she can smile everyday.

I don't pray much cause I don't believe in prayers. But looking back, whenever I prayed, I have never prayed for myself. It has always been asking for someone else. Maybe it's because I know that God has created me with enough strength to survive on my own... and I'm doing well so far I guess...

When we left the temple, I felt great because I could see her smile. And then, she broke my heart while we were sharing a medium McD fries.

With every cigarrette I smoke, I burn away a part of me. I feel it in my body, remembering the sensations and then watch it disappear with the wind.

I am waiting for the day I can burn away the part of me that makes me love.

Tonight, I wanna cry.

Saturday, September 16, 2006

The long awaited update

Hey guys, so sorry for the lack of updates. It's all a mixture of stress, assignments, lectures, lecturers, group meetings and of course not forgeting the most common confusion amongst everything else. Oh yea, the lack of nutrients have also done a number on my brain cells. Not a pretty sight to see me right now.


Trust me.

I'm such a wreck right now.

Basically I have nothing much to blog about these days. Kinda hurts to be thinking too much. I admit I've been drowning myself in alcohol and nicotine (yes people, I smoke. Big deal. Get over it!). Been having sleepless nights and tons of nightmares.

And sometimes I wonder if I know the reason why this is happening to me. I guess I do, but maybe I'm just suppressing it. Trying so hard to tell myself that this is not happening and that all of what I'm thinking is not real.

But I guess it's not easy to lie to yourself.

Then the only thing that came to my mind was that "How can you remember someone's face?"

When I think of a person, I seem to only remember the side view only. Why is this? Why can't I remember the full front view of this person? Eventhough I do see this person all the time. But I can only remember the side.

Then it hit me.

I am so used to observing people from afar that my brain automatically stores the side view images because it is what I see all the time...

The person I see and observe so much does not know of my existence. That's why I only have the side view.

Is this good or bad?

I can't decide.

I am now thinking... What must I do, in order to remember the front view of this person?

Because I'm tired of remembering just the side...

I am tired of being just on the side.

I want to be at the front.

I want to be everything... the only thing, this person sees...


Dreams will be dreams.

A wish, is sometimes lost upon a star.

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Stress starts...

Well, have not been updating because stupid Curtin gave a limit of 200mb per month. It's ridiculous... the first month I've already used over 400mb. And I never download or play online games anymore. So ridiculous!!!!

Anyways, my assignments have started pouring in. I have reports, essays, a survey, presentations and more to do. Just next week I have a 1500 cross-cultural essay due and a test worth 25%. Been doing research like crazy... doesn't help that I don't understand 50% of what I find. I just try to make it make sense...

I want to upload some pictures but it'll take up some bandwidth as well. I'll see if I have the time (and mood) to resize them and upload. Most of them are pictures from my new SE k800i. Hehehe... it's the perfect camera phone. I do not need any other phones already. Muahahaha... Except maybe a PDA but that'll come in a few years. Will need it for work =D I know, I'm giving myself excuses to buy gadgets XD

Okay, I need to go get groceries because I've been on my pasta diet and it's not fun. If anyone has simple simple recipes for lazy people like me, please share T_T

Saturday, August 05, 2006

I'm sorry...

It's 5 am.

I can't sleep.

I'm sorry.

Please stop crying...


Thursday, August 03, 2006

My Lecturers...

Okay, it's been 3 days since classes started. I have one later, but I'll blog about that after I go for class. Right now, I've been to 3 classes. I have to say that it was all pretty interesting. Let's start with one class at a time...

Monday: Global Marketing Communications 640

The lecturer is Sandy Chong. She reminded me of someone but I can't seem to remember who... but I noticed that she kept saying 1 phrase which is "Don't laugh. It's serious." after she says something which is actually quite funny but true. Hehehe... Hard to explain but yea, it happens.

Just after the first class, I have to come up with a title for my individual essay. I kinda panicked since I know shit about businesses and economy and marketing and all that... But basically what the lect wants is something current, or original issues. Just to observe trends and effects. And I can basically almost write about anything. It's just so general.

The first idea I have is "The effects of the Da Vinci Code on Opus Dei". But Jingz said it was a controversial issue and it could be very very very boring if you're not interested in religion. So, the other option I have is something about psychology. Maybe I can find something that marketers are using for advertisements and all... Any ideas you'd think would be good? It's a 2000 word essay...

Tuesday: Buyer Behaviour and Analysis 561

The lecturer for this unit is Ian Phau. Notice his surname? He really hates it when people (especially Chinese) misspells his name. They will change it to Phua. And he's from Singapore, so basically the first thing that came to my mind was Phua Chu Kang. Hehehe... Gawd, I hope he doesn't have access to my blog... *prays hard*

Anyways, he comes from a very interesting background. Kinda reminds me of myself. Cause he ended up in business by accident. He was brought up to be a doctor. You know Chinese families... it's like when you're growing up, your parents or grandparents would point at you and say "You're going to be a doctor" and to your brother "You're going to be an engineer". People from traditional Chinese families would know what I mean.

Anyways, he did want to be a doctor. And he got accepted into medical school (in my mind, he must be pretty damn smart because of the pressure Singaporean families have on their children is ridiculous). On Monday, he went for his first class, on Wednesday, he wanted to quit. It was because he had to disect a fluffy bunny... and he couldn't do it.

He has disected frogs before and he was so good that he could cut it open and sew it back, and the frog could still jump. He revealed that he was that good because when he was young (since his grandfather had decided he was gonna be a doctor) he was given the chores of cutting fish & gutting them and cleaning them. Basically to train him to "cut up people" hehehe... And his grandfather also got someone to teach him embroidery, so that he can "sew up people" as well.

After he quit on Wednesday, he skipped school for 2 days, and on Saturday, was the celebration dinner for him that he got into medical school. And you know Chinese families, all will gather in a big restaurant and all. I couldn't believe that he had the guts to stand up in front of everyone and said "I'm quitting medical school" when everyone was just congratulating him for getting into it.

Anyways, he ended up into business and he has worked for top luxury brands like LV and Fendi. He has been all over the world and all because he decided he did not want to become a doctor even after his whole life he was trained or programmed to be one. He decided to go into teaching because that was what he wanted. Btw, he doesn't get discounts at LV. Hehehe... he made that VERY clear.

I guess I'm in Psychology because it was an accident as well. It's true... I was just gonna take A-levels and go into Pharmacy or Chemistry... But if it wasn't for my friend to come up to me and say "Hey, didn't you want to study Psychology at HELP? I'm going to be studying there too. I can send you if you want."

And the next thing I knew, I was in Psychology. And I now have a degree in it. But I have had another "accident" which has lead me to go into Marketing. Well, if my lect had 1 accident and he's worked for LV, I'm wondering if since I have 2 "accidents" I'll end up OWNING LV. Hahahaha...

It's impossible... I know...

Wait... it's not ENTIRELY impossible...

Who knows eh?

Anyways, I gotta get ready for class, shall blog about my other 2 first classes later ^^

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Student Foods

I can't cook.

I know that very very very well.

But sometimes I DO attempt to cook and usually it comes out really terrible. So this semester, I've decided to splurge a little and get more easily cooked food stuff. Which are usually instant foods. I know it's not good for me and all... But it's not like I have much of a choice. I can't always eat out. I'd sooner go bankrupt than finish my studies.

I also try to achieve a balance in nutrients with my very very kampung knowledge of nutrients. Basically I try to have proteins and fibres in every meal. Which basically equals to meat and vege. Anything else goes in between. And I make sure I drink alot of milk. I'm sure that would help some how...

Anyways, due to my boredom in my first 2 weeks, I took pictures of the foods I had. Yes, I have a very very sad life. Anyone care to entertain me? Send me a ball of yarn... I'm easily entertained. Hehehe...

Homebrand (Coles) Lasagne. This was actually not bad, only bad thing was that it was kinda oily. After it came out of the microwave, you can see this layer of fat. Not that I mind (alot) since I need to gain weight.

This was seriously bad. Kraft's instant Macaroni & Cheese. It's a good thing that I just bought 1 packet and it was on offer. Was 99 cents. This is one product I won't try again... altough it's really easy to prepare. Just toss in the macaroni with water into the microwave, and when it's done, you just mix in the packet of cheese. Tada!

You're supposed to be looking at pan fried lamb, tomato rice and mixed vege. But I ended up undercooking the rice and vege, and over cooked the lamb. It was torture to eat it all... but beggars students can't be choosers now, can we?

I love this instant food. The only complain I have about it is that it is from the brand Lean Cuisines. I NEED ALL THE CALORIES I CAN GET, DAMN IT!!!

What you're looking at is something I whipped up myself. This is my miso udon with crabsticks and 'siew bak choy'. It turned out really well. Very filling and it has a good balance (I think) of the nutrients I need.

Well, that is what I eat when I'm in Perth (Sad, I know). Hopefully I'll be able to take pictures of the REAL good food in Perth soon.

Sunday, July 30, 2006

A noodle story

I was bored... and aNgeLiC sent me this... so... hehehe... I'm just evil ^^
p.s. click for a bigger image =D

It is time to start

Classes start tomorrow. My classes are all from 5.30-8.30pm from Monday to Thursday. Sighz... I'm only worried about how can I go back so late. Will have to depend on the campus' courtesy bus. And it only comes once an hour. I hope my classes won't last until 8.30 exactly so that I can leave earlier to catch the bus.

Anyways, I'm taking 4 units this sem:
  1. Global Marketing Communications 640
  2. Buyer Behaviour and Analysis 561
  3. Marketing Intelligence and Research 562
  4. International Marketing 615

Does anyone know what those units mean? If you do, please help this person who has never taken any marketing or business related subject EVER... I'm so dead (x_X)

Oh yea, I think I might be able to get exempted from Marketing Intelligence and Research cause it's somewhat like Research Methods. I can save 2200AUD if I can get exemption not to meantion a lighter study load next sem. But should I? Cause I wasn't THAT good with research... Should I just take the unit to like "refresh" my memory?


I feel so so so stressed right now...

I know I'll get through this. Hopefully can get some sleep tonight. On a lighter note, here's how my student ID looks like. I really liked the way it turned out ^^

What do you think?

My Narcisstic Self...

Yeap, was bored... Since everyone was editing new pics and all...
This came out ^^
Hehehe... okies, off to bed ^^

Friday, July 28, 2006

Finally... some pics...

Okay, I can finally upload some pictures =)

By the way, these were taken last year during Summer. So it's all nice and sunny. It's winter now so it's cold and gloomy... sighz... But, here's some scenes of Curtin...

This is where I used to walk to and fro everyday to get to campus. See those buildings at the far end? That's where the on campus accomodations are. But I'm staying at a different place now...

This is the Japanese Garden in the Psychology building. I just really liked it...

This is the place next to the Psychology building. This picture is good enough to be in a Curtin brochure ^^ (doncha agree??)

This is the top view of Atkinson Forum. People love to sit here during the Summer to study or just relax. I used to find a nice spot here and just sit down and read. I guess that's one thing you can't do in Malaysia's universities.

The following are just some random stuff...

Sighz... I miss you...

I'm like addicted to this cause I just love cheese!

This is what I usually make... It provides me with enough energy to survive... And it's easy to make =)

Thursday, July 27, 2006

I'm ready to start

Okay, I've gotten my enrolment done. Got a new student ID (which btw, I look really fantastic in this time ^^) and my internet is back in my room!!!

So, I'm ready to start the new sem. Hopefully I won't cave in... Hehehe... Then again, according to Jingz, I'm like a cockroach (no, not scary & disgusting!!! Well, maybe a little scary). Yes, I'm like a cockroach because you just can't seem to kill those little buggers no matter how hard you try. They will SURVIVE!!!

So, I also will SURVIVE!!!

Of course, there will be times where I feel like dying and giving up, I will somehow make it through and SURVIVE!!! Hehehe...

Anyways, this is a short post. Need to sleep. Got a fever and I'm gonna wake up early tomorrow to settle my laundry. And I've got dinner with a few friends as well since one of them is going to leave Perth for good. Dang, I wish it was me leaving...

Haha... The sem hasn't even started and I wanna leave. See how much hell I'm in?

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Do you know what's the irony in Curtin's servers?

Curtin's full or official name is Curtin University of TECHNOLOGY.

But with the number of problems that they have had with their servers tell me that they're no where NEAR to fixing the current problem.

I went to my housing office today and complained again. I guess they were really sick with me going to them and telling them the internet is not working. Apparently, my flat isn't the only one without the internet. It's like random flats are without it. I'm at Flat 2 but Flat 8 which is just a block away has internet. The office has access but Flat 33 which is above the office doesn't have access. It's ridiculous right?

I mean, how can it be that they have taken 5 days (well, 4 since they don't work on Sundays) to fix the problem??? That's REALLY long!!! Last year, they would only take a maximum of 2 days. But now... Curtin, you need new IT people. The current ones really suck suck suck to the maximum!!!

I wouldn't be this pissed off if I can get my own internet. But a phoneline here on campus costs 200AUD. It's ridiculous right? And on top of that, I'll have to pay about 30AUD a month just for the line. I have not even included the internet charges. A broadband limited 10GB bandwidth would cost about 30AUD. So all together 60AUD a month. That's RM180 la wei!!! Streamyx so sucky also cost RM77 for UNLIMITED!!!

Really, I think I can use about 2-3 GBs a day. But ofcourse it won't reach that much if I don't download. But... got UNRESTRICTED access where will won't download la!!! Very geram already. Been complaining about this to my Baby (thanks for listening ^^) non-stop. Cause I wanna online and chat with her. I want to go on MSN, Friendster, emails...

I know, I'm an addict.

I'm not ashamed of it.


Sighz, at least I can pack up my laptop and go over to the library to online...

And another piece of good news is that the error in the system regarding my enrolment has been fixed. So I can finally use my ID to go online and access the labs. Not to mention sign up for tutorials and what not. It finally feels that I am moving forward. The past few days (well, actually since I came here) has been like dead to me. I have no purpose or anything... and not to mention thanks to the stupid connection I felt like dying...

But now, everything's looking better. If only the connection can be fixed by tonight... Well, I'm wishing for that everyday. Hahaha...

Monday, July 24, 2006

Bah... Curtin sucks...

I'm currently in the library... Can you believe it? I'm in the LIBRARY even before classes start!!! Today's kinda a fucked up day for me...


Let's start with last Thursday. I went out for dinner at about 6.30pm and came back around 8.00pm. The internet was down. I couldn't even access Curtin's websites which were in the local servers which meant I couldn't get onto WASTE network as well. Well, nevermind, I know these things happen.

But it's Monday now and the internet is still NOT FIXED!!!

Sighz, I applied for a course change last Monday. I just recieved my new offer letter today. So I went and filled in the acceptance form and waited. And guess what... the same problem last year came up again. The International Office told me that there's no record of my Bachelor Degree in Curtin. WTF!!?!?!?!?!

I'm so fucking sick of this Curtin. Their servers suck to the max!!! It's ridiculous!!! Luckily I settled the problem last year, so they have records of my old emails and results in my file. There it was, my results stating I GRADUATED on the 12th January 2006. And yet, the computer screen of my "current" records stated "WITHDRAWN". Damn sucks man...

Nevermind, I got that settled, so I went off happily to enrol. Cause I've already arranged my timetable and all I had to do was fill in a form.


Stupid stupid Curtin servers won't let me enrol cause according to their system, I didn't complete my Bachelor. Damn it!!! Do I have to get my original cert MAILED here?!?!?! Then there was a fuss again, the girl had to make several calls and all...

And in the end, she came up to me and said: "There's a problem with the server so we can't enrol you right now. We'll contact you when it's fixed". WTF?!?!?! And she didn't know when it would be fixed. I'm so doomed...

Well, that was my day. Well, at least something good happened: I got to chat with my Baby on MSN again =) Even though it's only for a few hours, it's better than not being able to chat at all.

Oh yea, I went on Ebay and got myself a printer since mine died. Won the new one in an auction for 10.50 AUD. Including the postage, it's 40.50AUD. I think that's reasonable since Australia has discontinued the budget line of printers. I still have like 2 boxes of the ink...

Anyways, I promised to upload some pictures of Curtin... but dunno why Blogger can't upload... maybe cause I'm using the library's connection. I promise to do it when I can ok?

Oh yea, Jen, sorry bout what happened to your phone. Just get a 2nd hand one for a few months la... I'll try to find something on Ebay for you...

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

My Flat

It's been 5 days since I arrive on the 14th. I've more or less settled in and I've started to deal with my studies.

I've decided to change my course from Masters of Marketing to a Postgrad Diploma in Marketing. I got a little freaked out when I saw the units for the Masters. Since I have no basics in marketing, I think I'd better take something on a lower level. Now I'm just waiting for them to issue me a new letter of offer. Hopefully everything will be done by Friday.

I've already arranged my timetable, so everything should be fine as long as I enrol into my units by next week. Other than that, everything's fine I guess.

Anyways, if you guys are curious about my flat, here's what I saw when I first came:

What a great first impression eh? Btw, my reaction when I first walked in is: "Oh f*ck"

This is like my worst nightmare... HOW TO LIVE LIKE THIS?!?!?!

Oh yea, sorry if the pictures are so small. I have use blogger to upload my photos instead of Photobucket because my uni connection has blocked it. So basically until I get my unrestricted internet, I can't give you guys better pictures.

But rest assured, more pictures will come soon... I'm just too bored.

If you guys are interested, I can post up some photos of Curtin campus... let me know in the tag board ok?

Saturday, July 15, 2006

After the first day

Well, here I am. I'm still alive.

I arrived in Perth at about 3.10pm. Was out of the airport by 4.20pm and reached my accomodation at almost 5.00pm. Got a briefing from the housing Residential Assistants (RA) and was in my room at about 5.45pm.

Made a few calls, to my parents, my Baby and a few friends to let them know I'm in Perth and safe. Then called Sam (the one in Perth, not Penang-currently in Johore) and she came to pick me up for dinner.

Met up with Hui Lin for dinner as well. Went to a Japanese restaurant called Senoki at Victoria Park. I had Chicken Katsu Don. The portions were HUGE!!! I didn't finish about half the bowl of rice... But I did finish the chicken. Was really stuffed.

After that we went to Hui Lin's house for a while. Saw Jacky Teo and his girlfriend Yoshiko. Chatted a while then left at 10pm. Went to my friend's house to collect my stuff that I had left in Perth last year. OMG, I didn't know I had THAT much stuff!!!

Anyways, after putting everything into Sam's car, she drove me back to my flat. And since her car can't go into the housing compounds, I had to use a trolley to carry the stuff back to my flat. Imagine, a skinny person like me, pushing a trolley that's alot heavier than me up and down a HILL, at 12 midnight.

So scared that I would wake people up. Then there was a group of people who came out of their flat while I was trying my best not to let the trolley go out of control while it was going down hill. I think they laughed... I'm sure I heard them laugh. Or at least giggled... won't you??

Anyways, good news is that I can have UNRESTRICTED internet access when I pay for it *dances the Happy Dance* It should be available next week. Keeping my fingers crossed... Now the problem is whether I should get the 10gb or 20gb plan... Hmm...

I'm missing my Baby like hell...

Friday, July 14, 2006

Just hours to go...

My flight is at 9.40am.

I have to be at KLIA at 7.00am.

My emotions are currently stable.

Still doing some last minute packing.

I think I'll survive.

Don't you?

By the way, hopefully my on campus accomodation won't block Blogger. Then I can still blog =) Will have to control myself from playing too much online games though... But that shouldn't be a problem since I have alot of mini games.

Oh well... wish me luck.

Will update as soon as I can.

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

3 months [2]

Well, it's 11th of July. It's my 3rd month with my Baby =)

We went to Genting on the 8th of July. Yeap, I managed to meet my Baby before I leave for the hellhole in 2 days.

For those who are wondering about how's my packing, stop asking. It's as if you guys are more anxious to go back than me. I'm trying my best to block out the depression and you people have to go ahead and remind. I know you're trying to show you care. But if you really cared about me, you would know how much it bothers me and so you'll just keep your damn mouth shut.

Anyways, on a happier note, here's the pictures from our trip...

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They were having a World Cup Carnivale of some sort. The music was good ^^. And it was free entry. Germany was playing against Portugal at 3 am.

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No, Allie's not fat. Just horizontally challenged =P

They had games in the Arena of Stars. But you needed to be a Genting Worldcard member to participate.

The first game:

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Second game (this is really interesting and fun ^^):

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They were repeating the 2 games... so...

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Then there were CHEERLEADERS!!!

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And a short sneak peak at the Mysteria show. Just the dances, no magic was shown.

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More and more people came into the Arena of Stars when it was nearing to 3am.

Do you know how to make sure no one sits near you?

Like this lor:

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Although we waited till 3 am, we left after the 1st half. This is cause stupid people were smoking in the Arena where smoking wasn't allowed. It got really hard to breathe...

Look what we found the next day:

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Don't worry, they're fake.

Thursday, July 06, 2006

Things that keep me sane [8]

As my depression and anxiety attacks become even more serious, I am desperate for entertainment that can take my mind off the fact that I will once again be leaving for Perth on the 14th (next Friday). OMG, only 8 days!!!

Anyways, here are some great videos from that has cheered me up =)

The Japanese's mind never fails to amuse me ^^

My personal favourite is the 2nd video where the 'alien' comes out from the floor. I guess you can really tell who is really brave in these kind of situations. Psst, looking macho doesn't mean you aren't afraid of green aliens popping out of the floor (no matter how silly it may sound).

And I've been reading alot of blogs lately, nothing really captured my eye except for this. It's a really great explanation to why there are 45 minute halves in a 90 minute soccer game.

Okay, if you're wondering about the list, here's the latest update:

NEED to do before 14th July 2006:

- face towel
- facial products
- laundry detergent
- vitamins
- leather shoes
- stationery
- refill for my planner

- instant noodles
Fix my Nike shoes
Confirm my accomodation in Perth (For those who don't know what's wrong with my accomodation, click here)

WANT to do before 14th July 2006:

See my Baby before I leave
Watch the following movies:
- Tokyo Drift: The Fast and Furious
- RV
- Take The Lead
- Superman Returns
Go for karaoke session

Format my laptop
Download as much TV series and anime as I can

I've decided to take away the Nintento DS or PSP cause I plan to get it in Perth. eBay's such a great place =P Besides, I can live without it. For a while, anyways.

By the way, those people who have watched Superman, don't you think his hair's too fake? And also funny cause the lil Elvis-like curl is like forever there. Even after he falls from space... *swt*

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

OMG... only [10] days left!

I've contacted the person in charge of the on campus applications. He has just informed me that I am next on the list if there's a cancellation... So, please please pray that some one cancels their application ok? I really need a place to stay. I don't think being homeless will help anything...

But good news is that I have managed to cross off quite a few things from my list. Not to mention burn a hole in my wallet T_T

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NEED to do before 14th July 2006:

- face towel
- facial products
- laundry detergent
- vitamins
- leather shoes
- stationery
- refill for my planner

- instant noodles
Fix my Nike shoes
Confirm my accomodation in Perth (For those who don't know what's wrong with my accomodation, click here)

WANT to do before 14th July 2006:

See my Baby before I leave
Watch the following movies:
- Tokyo Drift: The Fast and Furious
- RV
- Take The Lead
- Superman Returns
Go for karaoke session
Format my laptop
Download as much TV series and anime as I can
Buy either a Nitendo DS or PSP (need help in deciding)

Another very good news is that I'll be seeing my Baby this Saturday!!! Will be meeting her in Genting. Now I just need to get a room for the 8th of July. If I can't get a room I guess I'll just go there for a day trip. It's better than not seeing my Baby =)

Sunday, July 02, 2006

And the days go by... [12]

Damn... Time flies... But I guess I'm slowly but surely working through my list.

What's really bothering me is my accomodation. On campus has told me that there are no more rooms. I don't know if I should be happy or not. Staying off campus would mean that I can have unrestricted internet access (it's a life-saver in Perth, trust me). But it would also mean added security risks... and of course, the inconvenience of having to either take public transport or walk very far.

So far my friend have managed to find 2 places for me... But somehow this friend is kinda blur on the details so I'll have to wait for her to pass me the details of the landlord. Basically 1 is about 10-15 mins drive from Uni. While the other is just nearby, maybe 10-15 mins walk? I'm not too sure. I'm leaning towards the one further away cause it's a safer area and I'd prefer taking the bus rather than walk. My classes would most likely be in the evening and it's not safe to walk alone in the dark (it gets dark really early during winter) in Bentley area.

My other option would be to have a car, which I don't think I can convince my dad to let me have... But I can nevertheless try.

And yes, by try, I mean beg.

Here's the updates on my list...

NEED to do before 14th July 2006:

- face towel
- facial products
- laundry detergent
- vitamins
- leather shoes
- stationery
- refill for my planner
- instant noodles
Fix my Nike shoes
Confirm my accomodation in Perth (For those who don't know what's wrong with my accomodation, click here)

WANT to do before 14th July 2006:

See my Baby before I leave
Watch the following movies:
- Tokyo Drift: The Fast and Furious
- RV
- Take The Lead
- Superman Returns
Go for karaoke session
Format my laptop
Download as much TV series and anime as I can
Buy either a Nitendo DS or PSP (need help in deciding)

I'll most likely go shopping with my family in the morning and settle most of the needs in the list. I might even get something I want. Hehehe...

Friday, June 30, 2006

Updated List [14]

Just 14 days left. 2 weeks to go. Spent my day cleaning up my room and checking to see if my luggage bags are okay. I also updated my list of things to do...

NEED to do before 14th July 2006:

- face towel
- facial products
- laundry detergent
- vitamins
- leather shoes
- stationery
- refill for my planner
- instant noodles
Fix my Nike shoes
Confirm my accomodation in Perth (For those who don't know what's wrong with my accomodation, click here)

WANT to do before 14th July 2006:

See my Baby before I leave
Watch the following movies:
- Tokyo Drift: The Fast and Furious
- RV
- Take The Lead
- Superman Returns
Go for karaoke session
Format my laptop
Download as much TV series and anime as I can
Buy either a Nitendo DS or PSP (need help in deciding)

Well, I guess I should try to sleep now. Will be watching Take The Lead tomorrow. And maybe Superman Returns in the evening. Should also get some other things on the list...

Thursday, June 29, 2006

For my Baby

This song has been playing for the past few hours on repeat... I love the song... and the lyrics... for it's meaning.

Baby, this is for you =)


What's Taking You So Long Baby
So Many Hours So Many Days
我心里的这句话 还是想对你说
Sa Rang Hae Yo

灯光下拖着自己的 影子
音乐重复我们共同 的忧伤 不是每一次的演唱
就可以淡忘 明天没有你
In My Heart We'll Never Be Apart
在数位相机里 留下的承诺
每一封简讯 传出的思念

Sa Rang Hae Yo Means I Love You
代表着我 离不开你
每分每秒 每一个声音
只有你撒娇 会让我微笑
Sa Rang Hae Yo 只对你说
I Will Love You And Forever More
我答应 Baby You Will See
每一个我都属于你 Yeah Yeah

在数位相机里 留下的承诺
每一封简讯 传出的思念

Sa Rang Hae Yo Means I Love You
代表着我 离不开你
每分每秒 每一个声音
只有你撒娇 会让我微笑
Sa Rang Hae Yo 只对你说
I Will Love You And Forever More
我答应 Baby You Will See

Sa Rang Hae Yo Means I Love You
代表着我 离不开你
每分每秒 每一个声音
只有你撒娇 会让我微笑
Sa Rang Hae Yo 只对你说
I Will Love You And Forever More
我答应 Baby You Will See

Oh Baby I Will Love You Because
我都属于你 Yeah

**Lyrics from Music ParaDise**

The Countdown Begins [15]

I guess my depression is right at its peak right now. My sleeping patterns are not only upside down but it's disrupted and twisted and inverted. I can't sleep, not even when I'm tired. When I finally feel sleepy, once I lie down on my bed, my body jerks me awake by increasing my heartbeat and breathing difficulty. Although I will manage to sleep after I toss and turn long enough, once I sleep, I either get nightmares or I can't wake up. As in I over sleep... almost 14 hours.

Is going back to Perth really that bad?

I can honestly tell you: Yes.

But I know I will get through this. I might not be in the best mental state but I will make through it. Why? Because that's what I do. I get through everything that I have to. I may not do it the best way ever, but I'll pass.

Now that I've gotten that out of the way, it's time to prepare for my trip back to the hell hole. Here's a list of things I need to do before 14th July 2006:

- face towel
- facial products
- laundry detergent
- vitamins
- leather shoes
- stationery
- refill for my planner
Fix my Nike shoes

This is the list of things I want to do before 14th July 2006:

See my Baby before I leave
Watch the following movies:
- Tokyo Drift: The Fast and Furious
- RV
- Take The Lead
- Superman Returns
Go for karaoke session
Format my laptop
Download as much TV series and anime as I can

I guess that's about it...

Any volunteers to help me with my list?

15 more days.
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